I have a higher and grander expectation of life than average and everyday, but I am a realist and understand that life is 90% mediocre and 10% amazing; I can lie to myself, living as ignorance is bliss, but Instead, I choose to enjoy every bit grand or low.
-- Softhearted
A Single, MSW Student, & Self-confessed hardhead (1986 - ?)

Monday, September 15, 2008

New Year...during the Year?


There are so many news in my life right now...it could be only newer if , it was the new year. Interestingly, none of them involve the news I thought I would have at this point in my life. Instead, it seems I am still on the long journey I started 4 years ago of self study, University, and just surviving. I thought by now at 21, I would be in my own place, with a new car and romance. Yet, I am not...I have been stuck in a dark cloud this summer, only increased by this realization...its really very sad, I use to enjoy summer so much.

Yet, I am not going to let that dark cloud take me under, I am returning to University with a new lease on life. New classes, New degree, New clothes...New pencils, New pens....New Job...or at least I hope...new job...I had interviews to become the new Houchin Blood Band Blood Donor Recruiter...I sure hope it pans out. With a little more money, I think I might find my way out of the Summertime blues.

The Holidays are only a skip and a jump away and they loom like vultures on my new attitude. The Holidays always seem to break me down. I love getting together with family, but I never seem to have the money I plan on to buy gifts, plan meals. For me I always do...Big Thanksgiving and Christmas meals that cost hundreds of dollars. That usually is my gift to the whole family...but I just don't know if I am going to have the funds this year...we will see.

Someone once said, "Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections." So that is what I am going to try an do...for my New Year...Renewal......I am going to let the excitement is building about the News in my life and forget the bad.
Goodnight Cyberspace, Keep your heads up, Smile, and Say kind Things...always...

3 comments:

The Mighty Beluga said...

new school supplies always get me out of a funk, until i remember what they are for :/

Tony Stark said...

The new year bug has hit you early as hell! LOL. Hope everything pans out for your job situation.

Maxine Perella said...

keep looking to the skies ... there be hope in them clouds yet